Lena Dunham opens up about drug addiction: ‘Pills I thought dulled my pain actually created it’
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The actor was named Woman of the Year by Friendly House, an addiction treatment facility for women in Los Angeles.
“I didn’t think that I was a drug addict,” Dunham, who has previously said she used to misuse prescription medication, said while accepting the honour at a luncheon this weekend, according to Variety.
Speaking in more detail about her former struggle around drugs, she added that “pills that I thought dulled my pain actually created it”.
Dunham, who has been sober for 18 months, first disclosed her history of drug abuse last year in a podcast with Dax Shepard.
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During this weekend’s event, Dunham explained how media portrayals had skewed her perception of what addiction can look like.
“I didn’t think that I was a drug addict,” she said, deadpanning: “I thought drug addicts were depraved lunatics who wandered the streets, demanding crack from innocent children and flaunting their open wounds in public parks.
“And I was a successful, capable celebrity who wandered red carpets demanding attention and flaunting her open boobs on TV. It’s totally different.”
The actor spoke candidly of her path to recovery, explaining: “When I was dropped off at rehab, I thought it was the end of my life.
“Seemingly overnight, I had lost almost all of what I hold dear: My relationships, my body and my career were in relative shambles.”
She made it clear that she’s now grateful for her sobriety, adding that “a woman who has overcome an addiction can do f****** anything”.